VS, While I can't relate to mom issues my dad died at 46 of alcoholism induced suicide and it is very hard sometimes when my kids hit a milestone and he was too selfish (in my mind) to be there for them. Then my childrens father ended up (not when we were first married) a meth addict and I don't know what to do to help them. They act like it's all fine that they don't see their dad because he is always 'missing' but after reading your counseling post maybe they should actually talk to someone besides me. I sure hope your therapy sessions help with some of the pain you are going through. And yes there is a look that unless you've seen it you can't describe when they are using.