I am glad your willing to look inside and work on what may be a root in some hurtful emotions.
It is so hard to deal with things like that. Especially when we have supposedly come to terms with it.
I think it was you who posted in another thread last week about the OPer to go to therapy because we react differently over time.
Like them ..you have gotten older and may react differently now.
Time has passed. Your a little older. And maybe some of the thoughts and having that time to let it soak in a little over the years will help you heal.
I know I have some issues with my mom too. Even tho I say I dont. And I dont really. But it does mess with me sometimes wondering whatever happened to her. Will I ever see her. Why didnt she ever come back. You know?
I think too that just going with the sadness sometimes can be so satisfying. Just dont get stuck there.
Keep doing the right things. And it will all come together in time.