Yes, I was getting into that cycle of on my off days, I would get so irritable, aggitated and easily frustrated. I never even considered it was the alcohol. Thank you all for your support and words of encouragement. I made the first REALLY big step for me and told me mom what is going on. It has been such an emotional rollercoaster today. But, I did get the Big Book downloaded onto my computer, a huge mug of water, and my journal to write in. A good start I suppose.:praying