xge910

Well a few reasons i am posting here, is that i don't want to be a drunk
yet i sort of sliped in to being one, maybe, did not drink today, first
day in a while. like 8-12 weeks. before this i was drinking a bit, hard
any where from 1/4 to a 1/3 of a 750 a night. not even for the buzz
just to shut down the brain, got some stuff in my life, was tired of
tossing and turning for hours on end working and re-working this
stuff. land lady, bull ****, bored, the girl is out of town for work
it was winter, kinda snuck up on me. woke up yesterday like
whoa dude, look at what you been doing.

Want to nip what i see could be trouble in the bud before it is an
big issue. Did not start off doing up to 1/4 to a third in a night,
guess none us of here did. The tolerances thing, had it happen to me
about 7-8 years back. cleaned up, been ok, I KNOW i have to keep
an eye on this, check it now.

mostly how i found this place, is had a bit of a bad spot this past
week, and was drinking WAY to much. this past week and this
wekend, YIKES! between Saturday night, and sunday night i killed
a 750, and a 12 pack of beer. Hey i know this is just an excuse,
but last sunday i got dumped by my girl of over 3 years, out of the
blue. We HAD an open/pollyamerious non committed non monogamous
best friends, play friends relationship, or so i thought, work took her
out of town for the past 3 months, been so missing her, so looking
forward to be with her, sit in thesun do our nailes. Well then on
Sunday, march 222nd just after we ordered brunch she tell me out
of the blue, just dumped, not just dumped me, but told me she is now
in a committed, exclusive,monogamous, long distance, lesbian relationship with an other woman

spent the past week like a zombe, was buying a 750 a day, not drinking
but getting damm close, sobbong about her, thought we loved each
other, or so i thought. Then get slammed hard.?

This brings me to how i ended up here, after my drinking this past weekend
i was feeling it and looking for "cures" to hands vibrating, why i am sweating
puking. After reading a lot of posting here i can see why. seems to be a common thread .

was up all night surfing the net. doing the test i found here and other
places, you all know the ones, are you drunk test, on most all, i am just
one number over, on one i was 2 over, i think it was how the questions
are set.

No drinking for now, for a while yet, And a lot of people know people
who are going over some hard times and drink too much for a while the
clean up and move on. put her behind me. None for tonight either, have
been up for 24 plus hours, sleep should come easy tonight.

so talk to me folks, what you people think, this is a small problem for
now, easy to make small problems go away with rather than deal with
big trouble later.

I have spent the past night, reading and looking over a lot of stuff.
What an amazing place the interweb is. I see some very big mistakes
i was starting to make, No more drinking alone for a long time. never
have had any troubles haveing a few drinks in clubs and bars, there
i have a frame or referance, You are standing up moing arounding, you
know when you are starting to have to much, your dance moves are
off, you can't chat up your friends, or even worse the hotty in the blue
top.

sorry to rambel and rant