Hi Lucy!
Glad to see that you are still with us! It took me a long time (a few years), to settle on AA meetings that worked for me. Just be wary of dismissing AA in entirety because of a specific meeting (I did THIS for awhile, too). I have found women's meetings to be particularly helpful (I didn't think that I would), and finally settled on a "set" that included all the types: Step Meetings, Open Discussion, Speaker. My point is that I repeatedly went back and found that some of my notions were totally wrong and that I needed to keep an OPEN MIND. And the bottom line is that I have met people who have changed my life with their openness and support. Best of luck and it's good to have you here!