I know, the worst kind. And it took so long for me to accept that I was the cause of my own misery. I tried to blame it on everyone else. Then it donned on me that I was responsible for my own happiness.
Great thread, LMM. Food for thought too. I forget too easily what it's like to be a still suffering alcoholic. Don't know why that should be the case since I'm still the cause of the things that cause me unhappiness! At least today I'm a bit better equipped to undo the harm that self-will does in my life.
I don't know why I wouldn't expect a recovery forum to have its fair share of sick people.