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Still Waters 
Yes indeed. And for us, when things are so insane and we're sick with indecision, we can't hardly hear when our inner voice is screaming at us. Being still so I can hear.
Yep....thats me. All of the chatter in my head has been drowning out what my heart has been trying to tell me. Being still is hard for me. Every penny I am spending on counseling and every minute of work is so worth it. It helps that I found a counselor with experience in addiction and co-dependency issues, and that she has done the hard work herself. She doesn't share personal experiences (as she shouldn't) but just knowing she's been in my shoes helps.
The other thing I learned today was that when I am holding on so tightly to an illusion of what I want my marriage to be, me fists are clenched and not open to the possibilities that God (or the universe/HP) has waiting for me. We can't receive blessings with closed fists.