It is hard not to look back on the times as the good old times because we tend to remember the good and forget the bad. The bad parts is what got us to where we are right now though.
All the drinking and drugging has given me life experience and I wouldn't trade that experience for being clean and sober and I wouldn't trade that for being a sober alcoholic for 20 years. That was then and this is now though.
We have to get responsible sometime. I just put it off longer than most.