Thank you
Believe808 your words are encouraging and I know I need to do this one day at a time. My husband also drinks, not as much as I do, but when I know he's been drinking, I feel it's an excuse for me to drink as well. We are toxic together, I know that. But I love him and I do not want my marriage to fail (2nd marriage). I have asked him to please go with me to meetings and he saids that he can not help me that I have to help myself. I hate going to meetings alone and therefore I don't go. I don't know what to do. I am just hating myself today and I feel horrible and I can't go on this way any longer.