I remember my last night using and I remember calling out to God, please help me. I didn't know the time but I had finally surrendered. God did for me what I could not do for myself. I couldn't stop drinking and drugging for even 1 hr. I am now almost 6 mths sober. Keep posting, don't drink just for today, then tomorrow if you haven't picked up, try not to drink one day at a time. I will pray that you find your way. God bless you.