Hi and Welcome!
There is always hope!
I do understand and I still remember how horribly alone I felt at the end of my drinking days. I had no idea which way to turn.
Get rid of the alcohol you have on hand, don't drink today. Go outside for a long walk, listen to some music, play with your pet - do whatever you can to distract yourself.
Take a look around here, and read and post. You'll be inspired.