Sugar,
I think you are doing a good job. Congratulations on getting clean!
I sponsor a woman who is in jail. We correspond via mail and I ask her to read stuff and write back to me. I know that her process is just as deeply invested and true as mine. Just because it's not face 2 face doesn't diminish it.
If you are reading and writing your responses to the steps, seeking deeper understanding for yourself, that can ONLY be a good thing. There is no negative there.
I would try to stay present to what you are doing and try not to get ahead of yourself. Just keep reading and journaling. Keep going to meetings. Keep looking for that person that you know you can trust and who has some real time built up. And then when you find her, cross the bridge about where you are step-wise at that point.
Hang in there! You're doing a good job!