Yes it's hard. I feel used, he was so mean sometimes, even after he was sober. I supported him for almost 3 years. All he could say to me is "no one forced you to." Not thanks for helping me out, getting me in rehab, etc.
He has said some of the most awful things in the world to me. He's become like a cancer on my soul that I want to get rid of. It still hurts, I keep busy, and I want to move on. I have moved on, the memories take a little bit longer.
I'm hoping God will bring someone in my life who is ready to be in love and treat me well.