need more advice I meet with her in 1hr. I finally broke down a secret I have been keeping its pretty much if I dont quit I will die from it. I have to carry an inhaler around and my blood work came back not good. She started crying. I am only 33 yet could die very soon cause of my smoking. All my lymphnodes are swollen and my blood work came back not too good. I havent shared this with my family but I wanted to get through to her. I am only 33 dont want to die yet its outta my hands. I keep positive and dont talk about it. infact my fiance just found out over listening to that converstation. I have my Dr calling me back hoping that he can clear things out and explain what smoking does. Even afer the scare I am still smoking. I'm addicted not easy to stop. Yet I am ONLY 33 so much life ahead of me yet I choose smoking. This is the mind of an addict. I quit everything else that would kill me yet smoking is gonna kill me first. DAMNIT.