Nickishine, i see a huge difference in you since I first read your posts. You are thinking about what's going on around you and questioning some things in a very positive and healthy way. You are doing so well!
Chiynita, I am so sorry to hear about your great disappointment surrounding admittance to the treatment centre. It's criminal to me that someone such as yourself who so badly wants help is turned away. You are an inspiration to all of us in your determination and integrity. I wish you well in your continued search for treatment and in the meantime, take good care of yourself and rest as you need to.