Hi Sugar!
I think that you could start to work the steps 1 & 2 and then turn these over to a sponsor but I do think it is important to find someone to work with.
I am not sure about your feeling s on a hp, but have you prayed about it?
I ask because I prayed for my hp to put the right woman in my life and boy, have I been blessed with a perfect sponsor!
Make sure you are getting to some women's meetings and share about your desires. If you want this thing, you do not need to wait to "prove" yourself. IMO.