Aw bam....where you are at in the process is alright...we each feel inadqeuate to the task in different ways...some just don't show it or admit it....You've made huge progress and you are inspiring a lot of people...the peace of mind comes and goes.....man...it sure means a lot more to me when i see one who isn't exactly having an easy time of it and they go on anyways.
You can be proud of where you are at...and I do believe that there is someone out there who someday is gonna need to know how you got through this today in order for them to survive.
hang on bam we all are right here with you in our hearts even if we aren't all at the keyboard at the moment