I am swinging again.........earlier I caught myself thinking a "point" would really get me out of this funk, made me sick.....head went right to how I could do it get away with it hide it ect......scared the S*H*I*T* right out of me.....told someone earlier about stinking thinkin, was suprised to find that after alomst two years of sobrity I could honestly think about using again......I HAVE WAY TOO MUCH TO LOSE...........I guess I am grateful that I have the strength of chareter to hold strong.......I wonder if I will have it on the 25th?