I don't know if your abuse was sexual or not but I highly recommend the book
Recovering from Sexual Abuse, Addictions, and Compulsive Behaviors: "Numb" Survivors by Sandra Knauer
Warning: it is highly triggering and pretty much was what started me on those two months of really thinking/feeling deeply instead of just remembering incidents and numbing out which is what I had done my whole life.
Another couple of books I totally recommend which reframe the AA twelve steps for people like you and me who have been abused and I, personally at first I think because of that fact, and because I am a woman, had some issues with the language of sort of AA pegging me as this liar addict with moral defects or whatever. These books reframe and rewrite it so that it comes at you more gently and in a way that I understood or could relate to a lot better:
A Woman's Way Through the Twelve Steps Workbook by Stephanie S. Covington Ph. D.
A Woman's Way Through the Twelve Steps by Stephanie S. Covington Ph. D.