In my experience controlled drinking is as hard as full on drinking..
But thats because im a alcoholic....when i had a "brief" attempt at control,
Every waking moment was taken up by thinking of the next drink..
Absolute torture.......
This may not be you....who am i to question a proffesional..
But if you were disowned by your family then surely you had big drinking problems.....??
Why drip feed the monster..........i just dont get it...
wishing you well...........trucker