Hi Jowinbo...
YOU have nothing to be sorry for! If anything, I probably should have chilled first before reacting so vehemently to your post about THEIR SUGGESTIONS! I'm sorry! I care about YOU and just want you to have good support all around you who can truly help you through this journey!
I know there's alot of frustration for you and seemingly for others helping you right now. There's probably other resources out there too that can help you or give you additional options for help???! You are so deserving of recovery and sobriety! Give yourself that chance, GF! You're so not alone!
:ghug