Givelove- thank you for what you said about the canvas- I needed that! Pelican, every day is different and some days are sure harder than others but keep reminding yourself everyday that YOU DESERVE better! I am in the process of creating a board with all the things I want out of life and a relationship- with pictures and words to remind myself everyday that I am worth more than what my AEXH and AEXB could ever give me! It is a daily struggle- hang in there and keep reading here, it has helped me out so much!