i know how u feel about that. my a.s. as you probley remember is pulling a 7-9 yr. prison term. rozied, they have a place to go if they will. they can get into a half way house & learn to live on the outside without using. my son will be about 44yrs. old when he gets out. i do not focus on what he will do. he has been in prison most of his life since he was 21 yrs. old. he has always come out & tried to stay clean but always went back to the drugs. nothing changes if nothing changes. as far as going to see him don't go if you do not want to. if you decide to go & the visit does not go like you want it to you can always get up & leave. focus on you & put him in your h.p. care. only your son & his h.p. can help him. prayers going up for u & him both.