Thank you TC.
I had a plan. Finish graduate school. Get married to my long term beau. Have children the following year and so on... I am completing the school thing, but find that doing it alone does not have the happiness that I had while we were dating and moving forward with our future plans. I have to let go of all the realities I thought I had.
It comes in waves of "oh my God, what have I gotten myself into?" "Should I have married him two years and not gone back to school, like he wanted me to." Then, I remind myself that he was and still is an A. He is worse now than he was then, and had we married he would likely have kept drinking. I wanted an MBA (in this economy I am forgetting why), but it is my completed goal from start to finish. No one can take it away. I did it and I did it alone, although I had emotional and a little financial support from him.
Thanks for the advice.
Sorry again FD for the hijack.