This is a great thread. I appreciate you writing it, FDM.
What I feared most:
Being alone
Being made fun of and having no one that loves me to turn to (I am visually impaired).
What really happened:
I found peace and strength in myself (much to my own surprise).
Not a lot of people make fun of me. I handle it myself if they do, or call a friend. Then I let go of the event, and life goes on.
I've done more post-Abf than I did in all 6 years of living with addiction, plus most pre-addiction years combined.
I wouldn't trade this life for an alcoholic boyfriend for anything in the world.
It's worth facing the fears that keep you stuck in the cycle of addiction, 100%.
And I'm saying that as a single woman who hasn't been in a serious relationship in 6 years!