Welcome back! I've found over the years that this is always a plase that welcomes you back
Anyway I'm like you, I'm not an AA guy. I have nothing against it and think it works wonders for people. But if it's not you, then it's not you. It's not the be all to end all, the alpha and the omega of sobriety. I take some of their philosophies to heart but that's it. I find my support and recovery possible by coming here and reading and posting. I research everything I can on recovery and make the necessary changes I need to to ensure a good solid recovery and get inspiration from others who have done it.
It's possible to quit drinking and change your life without becoming a life member of AA. Just take what you need from them and move on and find what will work for you.