Originally Posted by
Margareta 
Hello everybody!
but now I know what I want and that is finish my marriage with him because I know he doesn´ t want to stop drinking and I don´t want to live with that problem.
you don't need to justify it: that's enough. This is your life.
But after that conversation I felt so bad and changed my mind and asked him to forgive me… how stupid I am … He made me feel guilty. So I am back to the same old point I made the same mistake … I really wasn´t ready. He made me feel like an evil wife
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it's okay to not be 100% sure, to wobble back and forth a bit, especially in the face of full-force manipulation. If you still want to leave then this is just a bump in the road, its not a road block or a complete U-turn. You don't have to believe you are back at square one. You can keep moving forward.
take care,
hugs XXXX