When I think that I'm making the wrong decision about separating and I want to reconcile, I think about what that would really be like.
Everyone that is missing their A should print this out and read it over and over. I needed this today.
And I too miss my A...sometimes...less now than let's say 3 mths ago. And hell he was not only an alcoholic but a crackhead to boot...now isn't that crazy?
Stay strong.