just to add another point reading that back. Last night i slept in my car! My wife called she was devistated. I ended up crying i felt lost. Wanted it to stop but because i was drunk i didnt know what to do. Im 34 and acting like a baby. I dont understand why im like this because i have a beautifull wife, son and a good life. Cant work out whats wrong with me. I feel so bad on my wife shes the only rock i have in my life and i love her with all my heart but this behaviour looks like i dont and its wrong.
My dad drinks and i promised myself i wouldnt be like him. I enjoy the good times my wife and family have but im destroying everything and becomming someone i dont want to be.
Im really letting down people who love me right now!