all!
So it's the evening of day 3 and I'm feeling good. I think I've completely got rid of the shakes. Noticed last night still a little trouble falling asleep, but I'm telling ya when I did finally fall asleep I slept like a baby. Hopefully tonight won't be quite as bad or take as long to get to sleep.
But seeing that most of the physical symptoms are going away that means I'll have more energy and time to focus on getting through the mental part of it. I'm still just having a strong desire to want to do anything I can just to get a drink. But, keeping busy on here, cleaning, and just sitting outside looking at nature has been a huge help in trying to put positive thoughts in my head and keep my mind busy so that I'm focused on the good and forget about the bad. I'm just hoping I can keep this up.
Today has been a good day though. Beautiful day outside, so I've been going outside to smoke instead of staying in doors. The weather is perfect, up in the 60s. So sitting out there and watching the birds fly around and walk around and listening to them helped keep me thinking about how much more beautiful life is sober. I would've never paid any attention to that stuff while drunk. And tomorrow is supposed to be 68-72 and sunny, so another beautiful day. Can't complain about that. If tomorrow gets too bad I'll just have to go out and look for all the beauty I can find I never would've noticed before. So, yeah, all in all, I think the good is outweighing the bad for the moment. So, I'm gonna keep a smile on my face and keep rocking out to Metallica (My fav band <333).
Wes