Chippa - I think this is part of my thinking "Maybe I had a relapse because I was thinking I was more powerful than I really am over the butts" - the old trap, oh it's been so long, I can have JUST ONE now, I"m not addicted anymore so just the one won't hurt... I managed to convince myself i could have jsut one every now and then, even though I know in my heart that's just not possible - as a smoker, I will always be addicted mentally and can never have even one puff. But, somehow, as is so easy to do, I tricked myself - or the nicotine addict part of me tricked me... I'm trying extra hard at the gym, my goal is to go every day in February. Tonight si a long night- Body Blast, Zumba and yoga. But it's a fun night -and can't smoke at the gym!!
Yoga is great, I've been sleeping really poorly lately but yoga does help me to relax and unwind... plus the deep breathing is a nice reminder of why I dont want to smoke...
This board is very inspiring!! Thanks for sticking with me even though I've had a relapse of sorts... I'm just going to keep trying, keep trying!!! You guys are my inspiration!