today
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hi all, hope everyone's doing swell!
i have an appointment w/thearipist today (sorry spelling?)
i am scared, do not know what to talk about? i always say i am fine, even when i am not? i never know WHAT i am really feeling?
never could know, i guess?
day 13 and i want to drink before i go to see HER? so i will have something to say, lol, just an excuse i think
geez i am messed up from 35 years of drinking?
i just want to say F-it all and go back to the horrible life i knew, which is the easy way out, and for me, death, jail or institusions?
i am hopeless
i am going to keep on trying to not drink
ty all for listening to me babble
luv jow