Hi Lisa~
Sorry for all that you are going through. You asked for resources online. Well there is a chat room here like smoke talked about. I also know that there are al-anon meetings at
www.sober24.com, www.12steps.com, and chicagorecovery.com. I hope that you will continue coming here and eventually find the courage to be able to attend face to face meetings in your area. They are a loving and warm group of people who will accept YOU just as you are right now. I hope this is helpful for you and I want you to know you already have friends here. Glad to meet you.
As always~
The Wife