Welcome Richard. A lot of us find this place feeling at the end of our rope. It's quite a scary feeling being sick, hungover and out of control. I came here in a desperate attempt to once again quit drinking. I came here with resolve, sounds like you have to. I come here often to remind myself why I just simply cannot drink, I hope you join us. PIcking up another drink is not worth the consequences -- they are too great. You will find a lot of information here as well as a lot of support. Glad you're here