Please allow me to dump cuz I'm pretty p o'd right now... Pissed at being told what to do over something I feel is lame and wrong all the way around! Here goes...
I have a new sponsor and last night at her homegroup mtg (I just returned to mtgs after 4 yrs and this is my 3rd w/ her), when the mtg ended and I got up to mingle and meet some of the women there, she almost literally pushed me back in my seat to sit down and wait for her... actually my friend who'd be giving me a ride home! Understand, this is a small group, Tahoe is a small community and I know some people in these rooms who I want to chit chat with, and others to meet and wasn't
"allowed" to! I was livid! It's like "I'm not 5 years old here"!!! Don't tell me to sit and wait while you talk with your friends and I'm a puppet on a string sitting there quitely--waiting ALONE for the most part! I am a very social person who has deep-seated feeling about going back to these rooms because of my own shame and insecurities, big time. I just wanted to get passed my fear and be socialble. Anyways, it pissed me off, but I sat and waited until my ride was ready! I e-mailed her last night and said we've got to talk before I bail. I just don't think this was cool, at all! It's hard enough going back into mtgs as it is and then to not be able to reach out in my fear, but just sit there with the "hurry up and wait" thing going on.... No! I'm sorry! So she already called and left a msg this a.m. and don't want to talk to her when I'm this upset -- still! Any thoughts out there for me?? This is pretty much a repeat of a reply I sent someone else this morning and felt that it warrants feedback!
Thank you!
