Re: I'm new and so afraid and messed up
Hey, Dan here, recovering addict. First, here's a (((((HUG))))). I'm a male version of you, right down to the vodka in the closet. My wife has suffered immeasurably like your husband. Our kids are 6 and 4. You and I have suffered as well. We are sick, afflicted with a cunning, baffling disease. You know what hurts me most though? I lost the trust of my wife. My path, after the final bottoming out, took me to a psychiatric ward over the Xmas holidays and then to a residential treatment clinic. I was away from home and my children for a total of nine weeks.
Today, I have renewed my activity in the fellowship of AA. My wife has decided to get the help of women in Al-Anon. We are slowly rebuilding our shattered marriage. I feel your pain dear friend. This day will pass and he will come home tonight. Start with owning what you are responsible for. You've reached out for help and deserve a better life than the scourge of alcoholism.