Adult Children of alcoholics:
1. Guess at what normal behavior is.
2. Have difficulty following a project through from beginning to end.
3. Lie when it would be just as easy to tell the truth.
4. Judge themselves without mercy.
5. Have difficulty having fun.
6. Take themselves very seriously.
7. Have difficulty with intimate relationships.
8. Overreact to changes over which they have no control.
9. Constantly seek approval and affirmation.
10. Usually feel they are different from other people.
11. Are super responsible or super irresponsible.
12. Are extremely loyal, even when evident the loyalty is undeserved.
13. Are impulsive. They tend to lock themselves into a course of action without giving serious consideration to alternative behaviors or possible consequences. This impulsivity leads to confusion, self-loathing, and loss of control over their environment. In addition, they spend an excessive amount of energy cleaning up the mess."
I've been staring at this for probably 20 minutes now.
I feel good because suddenly some blanks are filled in, yet I feel sad(?) because of what lies ahead.
When I first read this, it was easy to say,
not me. But the more I went over it, sitting here alone at the computer, I cannot deny,
it's me.
My life right now, how things are going right now, seem to be painful reminder that working on my Substance abuse issues are not enough.
There are so many things I'm thinking right now, many feelings, so many things I think I want to say about this, but I feel exasperated(?), because I don't know where or how to start.
I think I'll just
breathe for now.
Good thread.