Welcome Sn0, Casey
This is a great first step, coming here. You'll find all kinds of love, support, experience, and guidance.
My question to both of you... Do you want to be sober? Are you done yet?
Stick around, read and read... (and most of us are a tad crazy, but hey... that's ok!).
Casey, regarding the worry about your children.. I really believe it's one thing for children to be born of alcoholics, and quite another to be raised by alcoholics. This is where you come in. Ready to do what you can to end this cycle? I grew up in an alcoholic family.. sure my genes may have left me predisposed for alcoholism, but then I also grew up learning that alcohol was a coping skill. Double whammy of sorts.
Sn0, years ago I also would do coke when I drank. VISCIOUS cycle! Get all high, drink to calm down, do another line cuz I was feeling all drunk and tired.. drink more to sleep, give up on sleep cuz I just may as well do another line. geesh.. that sucked! Talk about having your hands tied! Maybe if you didn't drink, you wouldn't do coke? I don't know, isn't it worth a try?
I'm glad you're both here.