But I never knew where to turn....the problem is that my town is small enough (200,000) that if I were to attend any meetings of any sort I would be instantly recognized, and that could cause a potential disaster for my business, which, in my town, is highly reputable. I keep my problem so secret and can lie so well that no one even knows there is a problem...only me
Do you go to another town to drink and score drugs? If not I guarantee you there are already people that know you have a drinking problem. I thought my drinking was a great big secret too, and when I "came out the closet" so to speak about going to AA the consensus reaction was "its about time".
I suspect in your case a lot more people know, or suspect, that you have an issue than you are ready to admit.
In any event, you have found a great place for support.