Sigh, I fear this is going to be my fate as well. I am only 26 and I am employed (in fact, I am the breadwinner of our family) but I fear a dry drunk husband who cannot give me the relationship I need even if he sobers up. I wish you luck in your search for a new life. I must say, though, that as much as you want to have a pity party, I envy that your life is beginning fresh soon. I don't have any idea how long I will be with my husband questioning whether I should stay until I finally leave. I know its sounds pessimistic to assume it won't work out, but really, I do envy your position of having made your decision. Good luck!