Open Heart,
Welcome to SR. I hope you will stick around and read and post. There are lots of wonderful people here who have been where you are and are making it. They will share their experience, strength and hope.
I also recommend you find a meeting in your area, Al Anon or Nar Anon, whichever is offered. Face to face meetings gave me the opportunity to meeting people who were experiencing the same problems in the lives. It gave me friends who I could talk to and people in recovery who were farther down this road than I was. Those people in those meetings and the 12 step program have literallly changed my life for the better. It's not an easy road, but traveling this road with the help of others makes it so much better.
Hugs,
Hangin' In