I too was not staying sober for any long period of time.
I was up and down like a Yo-Yo.
Was I hexed? Nutso? Doomed to drink forever?
I was a confused mess...
Then I read a book...took that information
re-newed my connection to God and AA
and finally quit drinking....
Here is a link to excerpts form the book
"Under The Influence"
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...influence.html
Hope this helps FW...
Welcome back to SR