I took one day at a time after I had realized that I need to change what I have messed up so much in my life.....
MY STORY CAN BE FOUND AT THE SIGHT "STORIES OF RECOVERY" .....my title is "TOUGH MOUNTAIN CLIMB"
But here is some of my story..... do catch the rest at "stories of Recovery"
It all started when I was still away from home and living with some Nuns and making my future with them at the same time..... I had been with them for 10 years and somehow got into drinking with some of them and others outside the house...... We ran a retreat house and every sunday served wine before letting everyone go home.... to me it seemed like the wrong thing to do .. We were sending some people home on the road with Alcohol in their system.....
Anyway ....for me I got too much into the alcohol and my depression got the worse of me at the same time..... I knew I needed help and the drinking wasn't going to stop..... it was my way of getting away from problems that were getting to me..... Yes.... religious have troubles to and just don't let anyone know.... they cover it up real good and move on with their lives..... They can't get outside help or talk to anyone outside the Religious life and that makes it harder......
I reached out to others despite what anyone says and got in trouble for it..... so I had to make other decisions and that was to leave and get the help I needed to be normal again....
But what was normal beyond Drinking alcohol?
When I got to meetings I was being judged there as others around me said I didn't belong ......when someone else said that I was in the right place and no one has the right to judge me..... I had a problem with drinking and needed help......
I had a friend that said he wouldn't talk to me unless I got the help recovery offered....... so I went to 90 meetings in 90 days.......
Today I am now further in the program than I thought I would be.......... it took One Day At A time and the will power to keep moving forward..........
I did get back into religious life and put in another couple years or so........... but I found that the same Nuns were just going to judge me for the past and try to find out where other nuns may have hid some money that was missing........ these nuns were dead and someone thought there was treasure hidded someplace in the convent............... My recovery of 5 years didn't mean anything to them.....
I left and have a life of my own that I need to stick with..... and my program keeps me moving forward.....
I have to do what is best for me........ and recovery has what I need to stay here for the moment....... I keep up with the 12 steps, help others and try to keep my family in one piece when others try to bring acohol into the house.......... We have our trying times and I just keep moving forward..... I have to or I will loose it..... and end up back in a place I don't want to be.....................
This is part of my story shortened and I have more to say another time.......
Little Penguin
