Maggie... Know that I am thinking of you and praying for peace for you and your beautiful boy. I listened to a woman speaking today who had lost a son and her husband in a crash. The boy was only 2. She was angry at God for taking them from her and now someone how has moved to a place where she is grateful that she had the blessing of having them in her life. She is focused on the good that she has and has had in her life.
It was powerful to listen to (for me) and at the same time, I can't even imagine what type of resolve, faith and work it must take to get to that place. I also can not imagine the heartache that this brings. Thought I would share that in hopes that you will know that I am thinking of you and that although life has its share of pain, there is also the joy that makes it all worth it. Hugs to you.