You aren't being selfish Pix...but it isn't always pssoible for us to control our environment...well being a hermit helps to control that...but take my word for it it doesn't work over the long haul!
So what i always say it step back and whatch their karma wirl....you don't have to jump in the middle of it. just let em wirl and focus on simply walking through the chaos as best you can. Jus doing the next indicated thing regardless of what is going on around you.
Just feels like i'm floundering.
OK....someone feels ill, mind not funcitoning well, not able to follow a schedule, not getting to talk to other alchoholics on a regular basis...not the person's fault, but...duhhhhhhhh starts to "flounder"
Sorry you sick wibbles, but maybe it is an opporuntiy to se what kinds of things can help us (not when we are sick, but in regular times) schedules (not to ridgid), assosicating with others who are like us, and most of all being able to focus our mind on the next indicated thing to do (meditation helps me with that)..I know for me that when I'm sick I really cant seem to pull any of that stuff off well and end up curled up crying on the couch cause no one loves me enogh and just full of self pitty which leads to i might as well drink.....yet it is all an illusion...due to my body being sick (including the brain/mind).
What helps? well hve mrs wibbles give you some more chixin soup and some more aw poor mr. wibs. You'll feel better in a few days if you don't drink...promise
I just CANNOT get the vision of wibbles weebling through the marathon in last place....so is everyone gonna quit smoking too? If you remind me I'll start the chantrix tonight.
CG....The real truth is we don't "know" if any of us will make it through the night sober....Of course we all stand a much better chance of that if we do the next indicated things through out the day. I will go to work (late but not to late), I will be sure to eat decent throughout the day, I will allow the opportunity for people to be apart of my day....(yes my sponsor has suggested that I show up for at least an hour at the AA NYE party tonight, and try to act a little more like I do at SR instead of just doing time), I will cook chris Lazana for his Birthday and I'll check in here periodically to be with my friends. I will also go back to bed in a little bit so that I am well rested.
If I just enjoy the peices I can as i walk through this day doing the next indicated thing...there is a good chance I will go to bed sober tonight. (OH...AND HAPPY OR AT LEAST SATISFIED AND CONTENT)