He says he's detoxing
My husband told me on the phone today that he's been to the 'Drug program place' and they started him on Methedone. He sounded fine. But now I just called him (yes, I need to stay away but I'm so scarred he'll die).
He said he can't talk, he's starting to feel 'bad/sick'. I didn't know you could feel bad with the methedone...isn't that the point.
I'm so worried my children wont have him around for too long (other post, he has type 1 diabetes)
Also he seems to sometimes (using) to have no emotions.
It's like he doesnt care. But now I wonder did he ever. Or maybe he was using a lot longer then he says (first it was 2 months then 6 months...I dont know what the truth is)
My life is unravelling,
I realise rebuilding my life on my own will be 'my' very diffecult 'recovery'
He's left me broke, in debt (and to drug dealers i bet), and out of the work force for 6 years (it will be hard to get a good job now), 2 great kids to support....
I have no faith anymore, I dont think he can kick this forever.