I just wish i could go in a time machine & forward it 2 months or however & see how good i probably would feel.
I a realy all alone, my parents have disowned me as they think i don't help myself, which is true.
I've messed up with relationships, not directly through drink, but in a way that drink makes me more anxious & anxiety pushes people away.
I hear so much here that alcohol is the stem of all problems & i sure know that too, so then why am i sat now looking to escape from my reality with a drink.
I had 2 days off in the last week, i felt strange & like something was missing, the high wasn't there that i look forward to.
I think i need a straight jacket or to be locked away, but i'm realy gonna try tonight, i need to for my health & what focuses me is that picture that i have in my mind of what 'In a Tailspin' said. Scary stuff.