Yeah, I don't know...I go to the doctor again on the 5th of January and I'm going to tell them how impossible it is to stop drinking when they take all the other substitutes away. I need to get these morons to schedule an exercise stress test. They need to stop pulling solutions out of their respective a**es and do some actual testing(and I need to stop letting them do that just because they're "smarter" than I am).
I just ate a bunch of spicy food and some nuts. I’m not hungry, but I’m ravenously hungry. I want more food. Make sense?
I love my mom. I just talked to her. She thinks I should be on medication. I told her that might be a bad idea because I already abuse alcohol. She knows I cannot control my moods--she can always tell by looking at my face what state I'm in. Bless her.......she does understand. And we're going to do something fun and non-alcoholic New Year's Eve.
At least I'm crying, now. I'm still human.