(((Bam)))
I'm sorry you're feeling so down. I work in a family restaurant that's just one step above fast food (my cooks wear the paper hats, but I don't since I wait tables), live at home and I'm 47. 6 years ago I was an RN making really good money.
I have a car, live in Atlanta, and STILL can't find a better job, thanks to the economy and my legal consequences of when I was using.
The one thing that doesn't cross my mind, however, is going back to using. That's what got me INTO all this mess.
I agree with Anna..when we expect negative things, that's all we can see or focus on. I am taking online courses that will hopefully open up some better job options. I focus, every day, on what's good in my life, even if it's just that there is a roof over my head and food in my stomach. I see homeless people every day to remind me.
I'm not downplaying your feelings. I remember them well. I just know that I had to change my attitude because I got tired of being miserable.
Hugs and prayers!
Amy