Originally Posted by
James13 
And another thing...
This first step, which I have been reading over and over, still hasn't sunk in. Every day I am still (irrationally probably) in the mindset at times that I never had a problem, and could manage it. When I DON'T want to get high, that crosses my mind.
So the first step surprising me already. I mean, just to convince myself I have an addiction is so much more work than I ever thought.
For me the 1st step wasn't about convincing myself I was alcoholic, I already knew that. It was about admitting my inability to control it, that I was powerless over it. One drink and I'm off to the races.
Ask yourself if you could do just one hit of your DOC and be perfectly content?
An honest answer to that will help you with the 1st step.
For me one is never enough!